its 9:55
i want to live the hour that everyone skips tonight.
i think i will
will you?

i think its time for another list.

why i love you:
cause you're different than me
why im unsatisfied:
cause i feel likes there's more to life (8) gotta be more to liii-iiifeee(8) - stacie orrico
why i dont know what i want:
still figuring this one out
why i like to travel:
cause its different everywhere
and everyone still lives and life goes on for them
even though they dont have exactly what i have
and do exactly what i do
and know exactly who i know
and love exactly who i love
and feel exactly what i feel
and altogether...they're different and life is different...but thats a normal for them.
so im unsatisfied at how i am
so is that good in the end after all
i dont think so
so why do i like to travel
cause its different
and cause i end up alright when i come home again
and maybe i like airplanes
why i scream when i do:
if i want attention...so help me not to scream
if im scared. that's more realistic: mice. ick.
why i talk when i talk:
cause i have something to say
or i want you to talk to me
or if i dont have something to say
but im going to fix that
starting with math class-i promise-so do help me-but i promise now
and that has nothing to do with report cards
ha
no actually it doesnt
second: i think ill do something on wednesday
maybe ill go to my grandmothers apartment
and ill serve coffee to the people in the building
and then do the dishes
which may be a stretch
ha
no it wont
then i think ill talk to my grandmother
and an ever quote. from my mind:
ever wondered how long it would take before you go crazy cause you miss someone too much?
and on with the list
why i sing when i sing:
cause im so totally and completely in love with God
does that make secular music bad?
i dont think so
and on top of that: bad is a really general term.
why im nervous when im nervous:
cause i want to do a good job
cause im unsure if myself
or insecure
they're almost the same
why i crave art the way i do:
because i havent touched anything artistic(not true)(except for..english class) since: a too long year(yes that works out just fine..the grammar there suits it.)
not quite a year
but definitly for half a year
which makes me want to scream
that doesnt work with my reasons why i scream
okay so heres another reason why i scream
cause im frustrated
so i think im going to do something artistic
maybe ill make a mask
of my face
that would really suit
maybe ill do that on thursday and friday
or maybe ill paint
that'd be satisfying
if it turns out well
or maybe ill just grab some paper and scissors and make a crown
for my garage bannnnd king
cause i am totally not the punnk rock princess
that's not working
why i think this is long enough:
because i bet ive bored you to tears.
paint me some tears
but maybe i want to keep going
i think i want to use some puncuation;
there we go