ive got this love for 'darling' thats not really explaining itself. so take a look at the dictionary and you've got a reason.

darling, you are charming and amusing. dearly beloved, you are regarded with special favor. you are greatly liked and preferred, o you're my favourite darling.



so you know when someone says something and suddenly you feel completely ehh. like for a couple seconds you've got no self esteem. no selfregard. o why?. why dont we all just watch what we say, i know i know the answer. but what if. what if we werent captives of sin and hate and guilt and death and all the 'lovely'-opposites that go along with that.

what am i saying.
o the influence of other people.
its not bad is it.
is it.
or maybe i dont even need to decide.
is a 48 hour notice long enough
or do you need more time to plan what to say,
how to react
or any of the 'lovely'-opposites that go along with that?

and to explain myself:
so wait, what /am/ i saying
hang around with one person for a week, and see how much you influence eachother.
but thats not necessarily bad
is it.
some things can just be left alone, its okay
and then the 48 hour thing: totally unrelated--i was thinking about prescribed burns
you realize how much it totally ruins things when you decide before hand what you're going to say?
you realize how much it totally ruins things when you decide before hand how you're going to react?
etc.

this started out as a really vague, cryptic and all the kind. so i explained myself just for you darling. love.

a couple more notes:
i am so ready for eb this week! aaah, ive got three pages of notes.whee!
what do you do when you dont know how to express yourself?
ps. could you answer that?
pps. (.or is it 'pss.') these numbers are neat. -- 0123456789
and i cant seem to catch figure skating.


'goodmorning, and in case i dont see you, good afternoon, good evening, and goodnight.'
(for those of you who i never seem to see)

tj

o write me a letter