lets reflect on the day:

sitting in homeroom living through nathan's daily stream of insults..all in good fun (?)
realized that the day would be long.
- band
- choir
- festival choir
- play practice
- teach piano
- homework/theory
- bed

ugh.

ot. ahem

history -- close to the end of class mr. vanderkloet read a couple stories/journal entries/diaries/poems/etc. to us. they were written by soldiers who fought in World War I. (written during the war). and here's the point where i dont know what to say. except for ..horrible. not so many things reach deep enough to actually hit /hard/. but this did. hearing some of the things written, the detail, imagine the memory......and then brent asked for the time. zap. bad feeling gone. but still, here's something that struck me.:

"I heard myself crying, 'God! God! please! and then i remembered, I dont even believe in God.' "

___________ ______ __________________________. and ill leave you to think you're own way around that.


eb -- (environtmental block) -- was when i began to realize that my nose is really bugging me. you know when you have to sneeze but you cant. now make that a permanent feeling.. insanity!!. then spent some time looking through newspapers:
"fashion week" , ok so those really high pants/skirts and tucked in shirts..ya, give it a while and itll be back. achk. then there's the hats. im hoping they stay 'out'. huge hats. really wierd. o well, maybe in a year we'll all be wearing them. personally ill testify to the fact that fashion is just unpredictable. ha, wonder what it would be like to be the head dude''tte that makes the final decisions to what we all wear. but enough on this.
and then i wrote an official letter to my dad...beginning with "mr.ubbens". ya, pretty weird. it helps that it was from three of us "students of tdch". but it didnt help that i was the only one of the three that was there today..heh.

and then the end of the day. --

so relaxed fun is simply great. doing something you enjoy with people you enjoy being with, is just great. i guess you could say im a drama freak..in one sense. the fact that you wont catch me complaining that i have play practice. but no i dont record myself reciting my lines (haha no im just kidding, aaa. nathans thing makes me laugh so much).
ha and i offered eui yong a ride home, then left without him. but hey at least we went back. i guess thats one of those blonde moments that my family just loves to tease me about.
o and another thing. the atmosphere. dim-ish lights. apparently im 'blue' . :
"I need to feel unique and authentic. I am a natural romantic, a poet, a nurturer.
enthusiastic, sympathetic, personal
i look for meaning and significance in life

warm, communicative, compassionate
i need to contribute, to encourage, and to care

idealistic, spiritual, sincere
i value integrity and unity in relationships

peaceful, flexible, imaginative

at work, i have a strong desire to influence others so they may lead more significant lives. i often work in the arts, communications, education, and the helping professions. i am adept at motivating and interacting with others.

in childhood, i was extremely imaginative and found it difficult to fit into the structure of school life. i reacted with great sensitivity to discordance or rejection and sought recognition. i responded to encouragement rather than to competition."


but anyway building on the blue thing. i apparently like dim lights..and its part of my blue-personthing.and atmosphere is important for me, so i guess today was better than most, after ot that is. dim lights in every class.


and building off of homeroom/music council, i encourage all you td go-ers to sign up for talent night.
and thats the end of my little day news thing. wow. i find myself in a rather strange mood. esp. considering i just wrote about my day. but hey. enjoy. "a day in the life of ..tara" (eep. i cant even say my own name.!)

you know its funny, cause i dont even like blue that much. its nice, but colour has done better.
tj