semi
what do i want to do with my life?
that question suddenly took on a new angle tonight. so far up til now ive thought of that question as a sort of scary thing answered by something like: go to university, study, get a job i like, get married, do the kids thing, grow old, be happy. and that just about covers it all. but tonight on the way home from Georgetown on my way past Mississauga i realized that question has so much more depth than i ever thought it might. my English self creative piece has been in my head all day. in it, i described myself as a stereotype. on my way home i thought about my identity. my identity is not my church, school, friends, family, etc. but it is shaped by those things. the success of the relationships i have with the world, within the world, and without the world will continually depend on my choices and decisions every second of every day. its those decisions that answers the question of what i want to do with my life and i guess more importantly, what i will do with my life. unfortunately this late discovery has only made me more frightened and more unsure in some of the decisions i am facing right now.
and so it is
just like you said ti would be
life goes easy on me
most of the time
and so it is
the shorter story
no love, no glory
no hero in her sky
i cant take my eyes off of you
i cant take my eyes off you
i cant take my eyes off of you
i can take my eyes off you
i cant take my eyes off you
i cant take my eyes...
and so it is
just like you said it should be
we'll both forget the breeze
most of the time
and so it is
the colder water
the blowers daughter
the pupil in denial
i cant take my eyes off of you
i cant take my eyes off you
i cant take my eyes off of you
i can take my eyes off you
i cant take my eyes off you
i cant take my eyes...
did i say that i loathe you?
did i say that i want to
leave it all behind?
i cant take my mind off of you
i cant take my mind off you
i cant take my mind off of you
i cant take my mind off you
i cant take my mind off you
i cant take my mind...
my mind...my mind...
'til i find somebody new
blowers daughter - damien rice
im not pleased, but i still sit up late waiting for you to come home. and so it is.
my eyelids laugh at me,
max
posted by tarajoy at 9/15/2007 12:47:00 AM
8 Comments:
tara.
i know i know i know i know. i don't know what else to say. except maybe, it's not so bad because it's not going to be "gone" or "over" or "that's it," ever. i kind of cling to that with every single breath...
some of the things you said in your english piece has stuck in my head too. i really liked it by the way.
"the success of the relationships i have with the world, within the world, and without the world will continaully depend on my choices and decisions every second of every day. its those decisions that answer the question of what i want to do with my life and i guess more importantly, what i will do with my life."
- you are so right there. i agree whole heartedly. for myself as well as you.
oh i love that song.
i have to agree with kathleen on what she quoted. i really like how you put that.
but i also laughed a little when you said that. It seemed like you have little choice in the matter. Everyday life will dictate it for you.
I think we all go through this. I think it's a part of growing up, a part of finding out what plan God has for us. I find myself holding on (sometimes it feels like i'm holding on by a thread) to that plan that God has promised me, even when I have no idea how or when it will take place. It's hard, but I think its everyone can relate too. This english piece sounds interesting.. what was it?
List of max eyelids: abridged
1.Make a defined choice and have confidence in it because you have made the choice.
2.never doubt what you have already chosen only more forward.
3. Don't lie to anybody including yourself.
4. What you want to do is always where you are. eg. why do I wanna try out for drama school, not because i"m excitied for it now but because I remember the excitment I had for it for 3 years while I was doing it.
5. Every moment is important.Every moment changes someone else.
"i'm not pleased, but i still sit up late waiting for you to come home."
that was it for me. because for me it was "i know you're never up this late, but i still stay up just in case you are." i don't think i can ever get out of that spot.
I like that;
I'm all alone again, crawling back home again, Just stuck by the phone again
i know the feeling way to well andy.
good song abraham. (hehe, and nice list)
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